He growled and grabbed his hands, tightening his fingers on him at once with a vicious growl. "If I meant it like that I would have said it like that and I did -not-. I never do and you don't listen in the least. You would save yourself so much pain if you'd just -listen- to the things I say. I will claim that your pain is less. You lost someone. Fine. I lost the other half of -myself-. The degree of connection the two of us had is more than you can even comprehend for the simple fact that you don't -understand what I am- enough to figure it out. You can't give me that even if you wanted to, so why should I be more concerned, hmm? Do you want me to really treat you how you believe I do? You'll regret it I promise you."