Despite how difficult, impossible even, it was for him to try not to pay attention, eventually it was over. Sephiroth was right that it might have been only slightly less unpleasant and over with faster if he'd relaxed, but that wasn't an option. Not even by choice. Did he have any idea how fucking impossible it was to relax under such circumstances?
He couldn't imagine doing this every day. Every allotted number of hours, even, if he was given the necessary amounts of water to keep hydrated... And that was the relatively easy part. He was aware that other details would have to be taken care of when it came to that too, and this was a terrible position for it, and-- He forced himself to stop thinking about it. Panicking and dreading would only make it harder.
Mello forced down a shudder and buried his face in the mattress, ignoring the hand in his hair and digging his fingernails into his own palms as his hands clenched into fists.
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Date: 2011-06-19 08:56 am (UTC)He couldn't imagine doing this every day. Every allotted number of hours, even, if he was given the necessary amounts of water to keep hydrated... And that was the relatively easy part. He was aware that other details would have to be taken care of when it came to that too, and this was a terrible position for it, and-- He forced himself to stop thinking about it. Panicking and dreading would only make it harder.
Mello forced down a shudder and buried his face in the mattress, ignoring the hand in his hair and digging his fingernails into his own palms as his hands clenched into fists.